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08:51pm 06/11/2008 |
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Its been a month since i wrote anything so i figured i might as well do a little update. About a month ago i went through a little mini mid life crisis. Dont really know what went wrong but i just sort of snapped, and broke up with my fiance and whole slew of other stuff i wanted to change started to happen. I just wasnt happy at that point in time so i decided to finally do something about. I realized that it was a little harsh to just up and leave my fiance, so we decided to try hard to fix our problems and its progressively getting better. I also finally got all most of my college stuff on track. Im just waiting now to hopefully get my student loan to come through so i can pay for everything and hopefully get a new car. We will see how it goes?!mood:  curious |
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| Sad Day |
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10:19pm 10/09/2008 |
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Well today I had to give up three of my pets to a shelter. I spent the whole entire day getting ready for this that it didnt actually hit me til now. As I sit in my computer room it just seems way to quiet, i keep looking over my shoulder only to realize that the ferrets are gone. Admitidely it smells a whole lot better, and there is no urge for me to sneeze but i still miss them and wonder if I did the right thing. In reality I know i did, they will have a way better life when someone who isnt allergic to them, but im selfish by nature and still wish they where here. Im going to really miss them, and to make it worse I know that im going to be finding stuff that they have hidden all over the house over the next couple months and remember them, which is gonna make it hard to be ok with my decision. On the other hand i can tell my cats are depressed since i got rid of their sister. I really had no other choice i couldnt afford to get her declaw, and she really had a death wish for my dog. I know its a little backwards that i got rid of the cat instead of the dog, but the cat has also accidentally scratched me on many occasions. Especially at night when she turned all crazy trying to burn of steam, she almost took my eye out once, and i could never go to sleep feeling safe. So really it was my only option but im going to miss her too. I just really need to find a way to stop thinking about them its only making it worse. Its hard to let go of your pets when they feel like part of your family. mood:  depressed |
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| Party Fun. |
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06:40pm 07/09/2008 |
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So the wedding i went to yesterday was akward to say the least, my mom kept pulling me along going remember that time with that person, or do you remember him/her, and i remembered no one except my dads best friend. Everyone else just kept saying they hadnt seen me since i was a little kid, so im sitting there going mom can ya stop putting me on the spot, if i havent seen these people since i was like 10 and under how am i suppose to know who they are lol. And its not like i can lie and say oh yea good to see ya cuz then start asking for specifics so i just said no sorry the whole night, i looked like an idiot lol. And then they only had off brand liquor so i didnt want to drink anything unless i know who im going to react to it, so the fact that i didnt have no alcohol in my system made me twenty times more shy. My next weekend is all booked up, friday is my friends boyfriends twenty first birthday so they're having a kegger which im excited for cuz the last party i went to of theirs was a blast. Then on Saturday i have a bachlorette party to go to which im nervous about. I havent ever really gotten to know the bride very well yet, but im flattered i was invited. Im just not going to know anybody except three people. It should be a blast though, were going out to eat at some chinese restaurant, then to a hotel to do games and have drinks, then on a party bus to go bar hopping. Should be an interesting weekend.mood:  exanimate |
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01:42pm 04/09/2008 |
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Im kinda sad, i have to get rid of three of my pets both my ferrets and one of my cats. I've been struggling with the decision of whether or not to get rid of the ferrets or not for a couple of years now. For whatever reason a couple of years after i got them i developed an allergy to them and i cant play with them for more then 15 minutes without breaking out in hives and im always congested especially now the the ferrets cage is closer to our bedroom so i finally decided it would be better for them if they went some where that their owners arent allergic to them. So now comes the task of where to give them to cause i want them to stay together. So ive been researching on the internet for shelters all day. Then i have to get rid of one of our cats cause shes been trying to kill the puppy every times she crosses paths with her. My dog has now had a chunk out of her nose tooken out and her ear all scratched up, plus this cat likes to scratch the crap out of me at night, she almost got my eye once, and since i cant afford to get her declawed and frankly im just irritated with her shes got to go. On a lighter note my five year anniversary is coming up on Sunday, i dont kno what the plan is yet im pretty sure its just gonna be dinner or something, i know hes getting me new shoes though so im really excited for that. I dont know what im getting him yet he hasnt dropped any hints lately so i might just have to wing it. I have a few ideas most of which are expensive so i dont know how im going to pull it off. Then on Saturday we have to go to some wedding reception and i have no idea who they are, i have a vague mental picture of the girl, i havent seen her since i was prolly around 10 or so. But it gives me an excuse to drink for free! mood:  hungry |
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05:27am 30/08/2008 |
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Nothing new with me lately except for that fact that i always seem to be put in the middle of peoples problems. Well i geuss i bring it apon myself but i just dont like my friends fighting, especially when it doesnt seem like its that big of a deal to get so angry about. I have certain friends who are what i like to call high matience. So some how i have both ends of this coming at me, one friend who thinks that this other friend should be calling and hanging out more often, and she feels like she being ignored. Then the other friend whos just getting annoyed by the obvious clingyness. Both of which are looking at me for some unseen explanation for the other persons thought process. And here i am trying to keep peace, while not putting my foot in my mouth. I swear from now on im just going to let them rant about one another and then calmly tell them i dont care. LOL ok that a little harsh, but i am definatly staying out of it. I dont think i do any good anyways, its like im a messenger telling them how the other one feels. mood:  curious |
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| Vet day. |
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07:59pm 20/08/2008 |
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I am extremly irritated since i just wrote a long post and suddenly it just up and disappeared. Today i woke up with my puppy laying on my face liking every bit of skin she could get to, this happens every morning its quite annoying. little did she know i was going to pay her back. We took her to the vet where she got her nails clipped, which were turning into little needles, and i needed to see how to clip black nails without hitting the quick. Which really its a hit and miss kinda thing, so i really hope i dont get her. Then she got her rabies and booster shot and is all ready to finally go to the dog park. Had to wait til she got her rabies shot, their not allowed without one. Got some good news, she should be starting to loose her baby teeth pretty soon which means no more razor sharp teeth going into my hand. My friend Amber stopped over today and ive been really bored lately so we decided to go out to the bar tomarrow night for a little birthday celebration for one of our friends. Plus my mom wants to go out sometime this weekend which im super excited about. Its turning out to be an awesome weekend. Im expecting twenty bucks to come in the mail sometime this week which means i will be able to get Twilight which im really excited about, i have to read before the movie comes out, im definatly going to see it. Gives me something else to look forward to since Harry Potter got switched.mood:  mischievous |
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| Stolen from Lisi :D i desperatly need something to do! |
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08:55pm 19/08/2008 |
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My answers in bold
appearance: - i am 5'4 or shorter. - i think i'm ugly. - i have many scars. - i tan easily. - i wish my hair was a different colour. - i have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour. - i have a tattoo. - i am self-conscious about my appearance. - i have/had braces. - i wear glasses. - i'd get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, scar-free. - i've been told i'm attractive by a complete stranger. - i have had more than two piercings. - i have had piercings in places besides my ears. - i have freckles.
family/home life: - i've sworn at my parents. - i've run away from home. - i've been kicked out of the house. - my biological parents are together. - i have a sibling less than one year old. - i want to have kids someday. - i have children. - i've lost a child.
embarrassment: - i've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation. - disney movies still make me cry. - i've snorted while laughing. - i've laughed so hard i've cried. - i've glued my hand to something. - i've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose. - i've had my trousers rip in public. - i've had stitches. - i've broken a bone. - i've had my tonsils removed. - i've sat in a doctor's office with a friend. - i've had my wisdom teeth removed. - i've had serious surgery. - i've had chicken pox.
travelling: - i've driven over 200 miles in one day. - i've been on a plane. - i've been to north america. - i've been to niagara falls. - i've been to japan. - i've been to europe. - i've been to africa.
experiences: - i've been lost in my city. - i've seen a shooting star. - i've wished on a shooting star. - i've seen a meteor shower. - i've gone out in public in my pyjamas. - i've pushed all the buttons in a lift. - i've been to a casino. - i've been skydiving. - i've gone skinny dipping. - i've played spin the bottle. - i've crashed a car. - i've been skiing. - i've been in a play. - i've met someone in person from the internet. - i've caught a snowflake on my tongue. - i've seen the northern lights. - i've sat on a roof top at night. - i've played chicken. - i've seen the rocky horror picture show. - i've eaten sushi. - i've been snowboarding.
relationships: - i'm single. - i'm in a relationship. - i'm available. - i'm engaged. - i'm married. - i've gone on a blind date. - i've been the dumpee more than the dumper. - i have a fear of abandonment. - i've been divorced. - i've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back. - i've told someone i loved them when i didn't. - i've told someone i didn't love them when i did. - I've kept something from a past relationship.
sexuality: - i've had a crush on someone of the same gender. - i've kissed a member of the same gender. - i've had sex with someone of the opposite gender. - i've had sex with someone of the same gender. - i've had sex with more than one person at the same time. - i am a cuddler. - i've been kissed in the rain. - i've had sex outdoors. - i've hugged a stranger. - i have kissed a stranger. - i have had sex with a stranger.
honesty/crime: - i've done something i promised someone else i wouldn't. - i've done something i promised myself i wouldn't. - i have lied to my parents about where i am. - i am keeping a secret from the world. - i've cheated while playing a game. - i've cheated on a test. - i've driven through a red light. - i've been suspended from school. - i've witnessed a crime. - i've been in a fist fight. - i've been arrested. - i've shoplifted.
drugs/alcohol: - i've consumed alcohol. - i smoke cigarettes. - i smoke pot. - i regularly drink. - i've taken painkillers when i didn't need them. - i take cough medication when i'm not sick. - i've done hard drugs. - i've been addicted to an illegal substance. - i can't swallow pills. - i can swallow about five pills at a time no problem.
mental health: - i have been diagnosed with depression. - i shut others out when i'm depressed. - i take anti-depressants. - i have an eating disorder. - i've slept an entire day when i didn't need it. - i've hurt myself on purpose. - i'm addicted to self harm. - i've woken up crying.
death: - i'm afraid of dying. - i hate funerals. - i've seen someone dying. - i have attempted suicide. - someone close to me has attempted suicide. - someone close to me has committed suicide.
random: - i can sing well. - i've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant. - i open up to others too easily. - i watch the news. - i don't kill bugs. - i hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for sake of being able to rhyme. - i fucking swear regularly. - i sing in the shower. - i am a morning person. - i paid for my mobile phone ring tone. - i'm a snob about grammar. - i am a sports fanatic. - i play with my hair. - i have/had "x"s in my screen name. - i love being neat. - i love spam. - i've copied more than 30 cds in a day. - i bake well. - my favourite colour is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue. - i don't know how to shoot a gun. - i am in love with love. - i am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS. - i laugh at my own jokes. - i eat fast food weekly. - i believe in ghosts. - i am online 24/7, even as an away message. - i can't sleep if there is a spider in the room. - i am really ticklish. - i love white chocolate. - i bite my nails. - i play video games. - i'm good at remembering faces. - i'm good at remembering names. - i'm good at remembering dates. - i have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life. - my answers are totally honest mood:  blank |
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07:52pm 19/08/2008 |
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So the one reality tv show im absolutly in love with came back last night. The Hills, for some reason i really love that show. Im really trying to pull some money together so i can go buy the book Twilight, i see that everyone loves it and im a little bit out of the loop. Tried to get it at the library but there was 81 holds on the dang thing. Tomarrows the big day that i take my dog to get her first rabies shot. Im really nervouse since the last time i took my ferret to get her rabies shot she almost died to a developed allergy of it. She still hasnt fully recovered. So fingers crossed, she wont have an allergy. mood:  nervous |
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08:10pm 18/08/2008 |
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Nothing spectecular happened today. Except i got to eat dinner from lonestar haha.. sweet bourban salmon is the best. We ordered to go so when we got back, my fiance's friend came over, to well to put it lightly watch us eat. He always does it, like hovers over you as your eating telling you how good the food looks, or just waiting for you to offer some up. Its really annoying actually, and he has this sixth sense of when your cooking, if you light up a grill or put something on the stove, he magically appears two minutes later. Hes a nice guy and all, but i would really love to eat my food without someone hawk eyeing me. It was extremely hot today, we went to the school across the street from our house to cure are boredom and act like kids for a little while but couldnt stay to long cuz i was sweating after the first five minutes, plus the humidity is a killer. I expect a big storm in the next couple days. mood:  bouncy |
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10:07pm 17/08/2008 |
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So nothing to interesting happened today, mostly i tried to entertain my dog and get as much cleaning done as possible. Never ending battle keeping this house clean, as soon as its perfect my fiance comes home and dirties it up. PIG! We took the puppy for her first off leash walk through the woods, we took her with my parents dog so she would follow him instead of wondering all around. Shes kinda hard to see in all the thick weeds. It was cute though cuz shes so small and she kept getting stuck in all the thick stuff and thought we were leaving her so she'd get all amazon puppy and bust outta them. Then there was some dead animal, couldnt tell what it was , there wasnt much left, but all i seen was my dog sniff straight for it so i had to make a mad dash and hop over this nasty dead thing to keep her from investigating. When we got home low and behold my dog had sap all over her side, so i had the bright idea that since peanut butter gets gum out of hair that it would get sap off of a dog. Didnt go so well, i ended up with a dog who reaks of peanut butter, and the sap still stuck to her.I dont really care though it was funny watching her trying to eat all the peanut butter.
I feel bad for my fiance, hes been working his butt off for the past week and worked both his days off and wont get another one til next saturday or sunday. Were getting prepared to start paying off some bills and go house shopping, but you can tell hes all wore out. mood:  exhausted |
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03:53pm 16/08/2008 |
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Well ive had this thing for a long time and have never written in it so i figured might as well write a little intro. about me. My name is Nichole I live in the states, and im 21 years old. Im about 5'6/5'7 im of average weight, not skinny but definatly not fat, blue eyes, blonde and black hair. Im a shoeaholic, i also really love fashion even though i dont dress fashion forward. im more for being comfortable, i just like to look at all the fancy clothes. Im usually a laid back person, until someone makes me angry, then the devil comes out, i love being with my friends and having a good time. Im an animal lover and owner of six pets. I live with my fiance, we've been together for almost five years, and will be getting married in two years. Im going back to school for the winter semester where i will be going to get a certificate for medical transcriptionist. Then later on going for a bachelors degree in something, i just dont know what. Well thats about it for now!mood:  happy |
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